WIDOW IN MY BED

Did Matt realize he loved Amanda back in Havana? Sure, but at that time, Matt didn’t dare to imagine what else to think about developing his feelings because, in his mind, it was written that he wouldn’t fuck the same woman. Besides, their relationship is nothing more than an agreement.

Despite knowing his affection for Amanda wasn’t just a platonic relationship, Matt’s in denial. Sex friends are just an excuse not to cross the line.

Matt is a smoker, and he also likes alcohol, especially wine. The man collected many bottles of wine older than his age but did not get drunk easily.

That’s why…

Being able to distinguish between reality and being drunk, Matt realizes his heart beats for Amanda until he cannot move when he sees Amanda smiling.

And now, after becoming the husband of an angel named Amanda La Wallace, those feelings grow even crazier.

Matt was very fond of Amanda’s presence in his life. She gave him such tenderness and family that he never imagined that Matt couldn’t even think about how he could live without Amanda. How do we survive without Amanda?

“Sweetheart,” Matt approached Amanda, who was reading a book with glasses embedded in her little nose.

“Yes?” Amanda immediately closed the book and then put it on the little desk. “Your work is done, sugar?”

“Yes.” Matt immediately got into bed where his wife was. He kissed Amanda on the cheek with a big, fat kiss. Matt smiled and said, “Are you tired after all day? Does my wife want to massage her feet?”

“Sure, if you don’t mind.” Amanda looked at Matt, and the man was trying to spoil him as a husband.

“Why should I object? It’s just a little massage. I like smelling all over the surface of your feet, and I’m honoured to do it, Babe. It’s fun when you start making strange noises,” Matt replied with laughter, referring to activities full of perverted sweat.

Amanda turned her eyes and spoke plainly. “Oh, my God, I think my husband has to go to church tomorrow morning to repent. Ask God for forgiveness.”

Matt smiled and laughed after he was asked to repent. Matt’s very excited.

“Since when has my wife had the talent to be a comedian!?” Matt pinched Amanda’s nose in a fit.

Amanda complained about Matt’s behaviour when her nose turned red because she was bullied. “Why are you pinching my nose? I had treatment yesterday, Matt!”

“Because you’re so cute,” Matt was flabbergasted without a break. “You can take care of me again, my dear. Shall I call the doctor at home tomorrow? Or do I buy the clinic simultaneously so you can get treatment seven times 24 hours?”

“You’re crazy!” Amanda reclines her face so Matt’s hands don’t get more barren. A second later, trying to change their joking time by asking slowly, “Matt… I have something to talk to you about, okay?”

Amanda’s been trying to figure out the right lines since Matt entered the bedroom.

The man is still massaging her feet. His face looks calm after he says Amanda can talk about anything, and Matt will listen.

“Matt, you remember my examination results at the obstetrician’s, right?” Amanda started.

“After the treatment and therapy I did, the doctor said I could get pregnant, but it was full of risks. The doctor also suggested I’m not pregnant on health grounds. Even I could lose my uterus or my life if I insisted on getting pregnant. And doctors also give me adoption options.”

Amanda stopped to see Matt’s expression. “I want to get pregnant, Matt. Even with that risk, there is still a possibility that we can have our children as long as I take good care of my pregnancy.”

“We talked about this last week, Babe, and my answer remains the same.” Matt knows that his wife desperately wants biological children. But if Amanda’s pregnancy endangered his wife’s life, Matt would firmly refuse.

“I’m talking to you because we’re a couple. I want to share my feelings about disabled people. I think you’ll understand, Matt,” Amanda’s voice shook.

“I’m selfish to insist on my desires, but I want to make you happy, to be a whole man so that there’s a child who can call you Papa…”

“Look at me…” Matt panicked, also disappointed, touching Amanda’s cheeks slowly. “Please don’t talk like that.”

Amanda looked at Matt and took that guy’s hand off his cheek. “Because you want kids. And I’m useless because you’re having trouble getting it from me, which is useless! You suffered for marrying me!”

Amanda doesn’t consciously speak with much emphasis. Unlike her usual self, she felt carried away.This is from NôvelDrama.Org.

Matt looked into his wife’s eyes long enough. The man looks sad, with an expression he’s never given anyone, and his heart is hurt. I can’t do anything about Amanda’s wishes on this one. He is trying to suppress his emotions so as not to get angry.

But if asked a hundred times, Matt’s answer would still be the same. He’ll choose Amanda over his biological kid. The lantern is Amanda, so why would she live if it went out?

Matt can only slow down before saying, “When did I ever force you to give birth to my child? Have I ever mentioned this to you? If so, I’m sorry, sweetheart.”

Matt doesn’t understand Amanda’s emotions right now. For a kid who’s never really had a problem with that guy, Amanda was venting her grief in a different way.

“You look very happy when you’re with Lio and Lea. You play and read fairy tale books like a family. You’d be a good father to have your child, Matt.”

Matt replied, “I don’t want it. Should I say it one more time? I don’t need children, Mrs. Wallace.”

“Lie! You’re just trying to accept my situation now, right?!”

“As a man… Honestly, I once wished I could carry my child, but if that child makes me lose the woman I love… “I’d better just live with you until I get old,” Matt said. There’s no doubt, even though his facial expression is garbled.

“I’ve been happy like this. My life would be perfect if it were for you. It’s not because there’s a child between us.”

“But you have to have kids, Matt.”

Matt shook fast. “I don’t want kids, babe.”

Amanda looked at Matt doubtfully, her eyes glazed over. “If the one you love isn’t me, you’ll have a child of a much healthier woman-”

“Sweetheart, please listen to me…” Matt didn’t like Amanda’s continuing dialogue and cut it off immediately. He shows no disrespect to his partner while talking. Still, Matt refuses to listen to Amanda’s strange arguments, which will further aggravate their argument. And because that’s not possible.

Child of another woman? Bullshit!

Matt thinks his wife needs to hear this. “Let me review what you should know; first, we have sworn to exist in times of trouble or pleasure, health or illness, will take care of each other and love each other until death do part as a witness, even though I don’t believe in God-but one thing I believe in our marriage. Second, from the beginning, my intention to marry you was to live with you, not to make you a child-making machine. Third, I don’t want a child if I have to exchange it for your safety,” Matt said again firmly while touching his wife’s shoulders. “I don’t need a child.”

Matt goes, “But why are your words like you want me to find another woman? What you just said hurt my feelings, Amanda. I was so afraid of losing you that I wouldn’t let you get pregnant…”

“If it’s the best–other women, you can get biological children from healthier women, then I–

“Oh for God’s-Amanda La Wallace!!!”

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