Chapter 32
Chapter 32
Ugh, it's so good! Oh god, I could do this forever! I let out a quiet moan.
This food is so damn good!
I ended up ordering the golden Yukon potato soup, and it did not disappoint. Tyler ordered some fancy
steak that I don't remember the name of, he's so manly. I held the spoon up to my lips again and
swallowed the addicting soup. This should be our regular place for date night, I should probably tell
Tyler that I made date night a thing.
No texts, no pains, no worries! Tonight was just perfect, the best part was that I was with my mate. May
I say he may be a rogue slayer but right now he is my European prince. Am I pretty sure he's
European? Not from Europe but his heritage has to be Italian.
"How is everything?"
The waiter brings me back to reality and I answer with a simple 'perfection!'.
The whole time Tyler and I small talked, just learning more things about each other. He became Alpha
at 18 because his father stepped down, I guess being Alpha comes with a lot of pressure.
Then it happened, the only thing that I didn't want to happen... it buzzed, my phone buzzed.
My face went blank and I carefully looked around the room, I didn't see anyone suspicious.
"Anna, what's going on? Are you okay?"
I snap back to Tyler. "Ya, um everything is fine." I almost can't fight the urge to read the text. I smile
awkwardly and glance at my purse, it's in there, my phone. It's so close…
"Who text you?" He asks laced with seriousness. I shrug and shake my head.
"Anna give me your phone." He orders and holds out his hand.
I look at his hand in pure terror. "Oh no, it's fine I can-"
"Anna give me the phone."
Oh no, oh no, I slowly reached in my bag and grasped my phone. Do I give it to him? Or dunk it in my
water?
My heart starts to race uncontrollably as I hold it across the table and drop it into his hand. He looks at
the screen, reading the message.
Oh goddess please, let this all be a dream, what if the guy was serious. Will he really attack our pack?
Will he hurt Tyler? I held my breath until he spoke.
"Nicole is in labor." He breaths out.
Thank goddess!
Wait.
"Let's go!" I panic and grab my purse, Tyler throws money on the table and we took it to his car. We
climb in and Tyler speeds off to the pack doctor. Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
What if was that guy? I take a deep breath and try to relax. It wasn't, we're still okay. I could feel my
wolf getting mad at me for keeping secrets from our mate, but I can't risk it. This is all my fault, I just
keep getting everyone into trouble. What does the future hold for me? I can barely have kids, people
are looking for me, my dead dad is alive, what else could happen?
I just have to stay strong and try not to ruin anything more.
We got out of the car and ran into the building. Tyler went up to the front desk while I waited behind. I
glanced around the room, it was empty except for Tyler, the lady at the desk, and I. While Tyler found
out the information I sat down in one of the waiting chairs.
I wonder if it's a boy or girl, I wonder what they're going to name it. Nicole will be a great mom. She's
always happy, she puts a smile on your face, she knows how to cheer you up. Nicole has a motherly
character--nothing wil suit her better.
"Anna come on." Tyler motions for me to follow him and I do. We enter a room that's almost all white,
it's so clean and pure looking. Laying on the bed is Nicole holding her little baby with Michael, they're
smiling at the camera that Katy has in her hands. They look like a family.
"Oh, you guys are here! This is Isabelle." Nicole introduces us to her little baby girl. She so cute and
small, so fragile. "Anna, you want to hold her?"
Do I?
Well of course I do, but what if I mess up; what if I drop her?
"Yeah, sure." I blurt before really thinking. I walk up to her bed and reach out for Isabelle.
I carefully take her into my arms and hold her close, a part of me is longing, I want this. I want the
option of holding my own child in my arms, rocking them in my embrace. I want to protect my own child.
I'm not saying I want to have a baby right now, but in the future, hopefully, the odds will be on my side.
"She has your eyes Nicole, and your nose Michael..." I say quietly. She looks exactly like them, she's
their little miracle.
I feel my heart start to crumble, I want this, these moments. I want to know that one day I can be happy
and have a family too. But I don't. And I'm sure I won't.
I hand Isabelle back over to her mother and step back, I can't help but want to cry. I blink and blink
trying to get rid of the water forming in my eyes.
"I'm going to the bathroom," I mutter before rushing into the hallway and to the nearest restroom. I
swing the door open and quickly shut it and lock it. I grab onto the sink and slowly raise my head up,
seeing myself in the mirror. Is it even me anymore?
I let out a blood curdling scream and grab my phone, throwing it against the mirror, leaving a long crack
in the middle and shards on the floor.
I can't take it! Why can't I just be a human, be normal? Dammit!
I look up at my face as a long crack runs through it.
What did I do? I broke a mirror!
How can I be so selfish! I pick up my phone off the tile floor covered in glass, it's cracked. A message
popped up on the broken screen.
from: unknown
Angry?
Suddenly there is banging on the door and shouting. How long have they been there?
"Anna! Open the door!"
Tyler... oh no. I look down at my arm as I begin to feel a sharp pain. There's a glass shard in my arm.
"Anna open the damn door before I break it down!"
Blood slowly drips down my forearm, trailing its way to my palm... I'm weak.
I reach for the lock of the door and gently turn it, freeing the lock.
I don't want him to see me like this, I'm supposed to be strong and confident. But all I am is depressed,
scared, nervous, and weak. People only want me for my stupid eggs, my curse. Other than that I'm a
burden.
"Anna."
I turn to my left to see Tyler standing in the doorway breathing heavy. His eyes scan my surroundings.
When they reach my arm he looks away.
I couldn't tell if he was disappointed, upset, angry. My nerves were on edge.
What have I done? How could I be so childish, so unappreciative?
I wish mom was here to hold me and tell me everything is okay, I wish my sister could tell me that I'll
always have her, I wish my brother could still threaten any boy that came near me. I still miss them, I
always will.
"Can we go home," I mutter while gently touching the glass in my arm.
"What, there's glass in your arm, you broke the mirror- what happened?!" He shouts.
I cringe as I grab onto the glass and slowly pull it out of my skin--ouch. I drop the bloody shard on the
floor and look back up at him. My arm will heal fast.
"How about now?" I ask my voice cracking.
"Anna what happened?" He yells at me again while slamming his hand on the counter.
I opened my mouth to speak but closed it, I didn't have an excuse. I just had to get out of this
bathroom, I feel like the walls are closing in on me. I try and push Tyler out of the way but I'm not that
strong, ugh! I try again but he didn't budge.
"Anna stop."
I didn't listen, I kept trying to push him, tears were starting to sting my eyes. I just have to get out.
"Anna stop!" He orders as he grabs my shoulders.
"No! I want to leave!" I fight.
"Stop acting like a child!"
"Let me out of the damn bathroom!" I yell while ripping out of his tempting touch.
"Would you quit being such a brat!"
Before I knew it my hand collided with his cheek, the sound rang through my ears. I turned away and
started to cry. What am I doing! Who am I? I just hit Tyler!
More and more tears streamed down my cheeks as I crouched down. I'm a monster!
I turned around but Tyler wasn't there, I immediately looked down the hall but it was clear. I ran back to
the hospital room and swung the door open, he wasn't there…
"Anna, what happened?" Katy freaks as she stares at me in this state.
I don't even answer, I just leave and run back down the hallway to the front waiting room.
"Anna!" Katy calls as she runs after me.
I want Tyler! I want him to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, I want him to tell me I'll always
have him, I want him to protect me! All I need is him, I love him.
I sprint out the door into the cool night.
"Tyler! Tyler, I'm sorry! Please!" I cry into the night sky. "Please, I need you!"
An arm pulls me into a hug and rubs my back, Katy. I cry on her shoulder while I mumble all about how
I hit him and he left. She strokes my hair and rocks back and forth.
"Anna lets go home okay? He's probably at home."