Chapter 25 New reality
Diana sat, as usual, near the window and peered into the distance. Various thoughts rushed in her head. She constantly recalled those two girls who behaved so bravely with Alexander’s children. She could not interpret their behavior because she had never seen anything like it.
She remembered how they laughed, how they played, how they looked at the twins. Suddenly, for herself, Diana realized that she was jealous of them. Deep down, she also wanted to be like them. Hundreds of times she caught herself having these thoughts and stopped them so as not to allow them to destroy her fragile idea of the world, which was already bursting at the seams.
“No, no, no, I can’t think about it, I shouldn’t think like that! These are sinful thoughts. If I keep thinking about it, then soon even the owner will not be able to help me! I rather have my beloved Master come back and cleanse me with a good flogging for my dirty thoughts!”
Diana shook with fear, imagining how the devil’s fire penetrated her body through sinful thoughts. The girl was afraid of this like fire, she knew only one side of the coin, only what she was taught at school. She could not even imagine that girls could be equals with men. That they could look at them freely, without permission.
It definitely intrigued her childhood imagination. Over and over, she ran that gaze. The girls looked at the guys not with haunted eyes, but haughtily, boldly, even insolently!
She also constantly thought about Alexander, about how much she loved and hated him. Loved all their games and hated his cruel treatment of her when she was very aroused. In those moments, she felt like a non-entity, a thing.
This should not anger her, she was born for this. She was created for this man, to gratify his lust and count on his mercy. But still, the other women she saw, made Diana think about her fate…
All these thoughts oppressed her and she suffered a terrible headache. The brain tried to analyze and explain. Everything she saw then, completely contradicted what was hammered into her head. The girl was ready to bang her head against the wall in order to drive away all thoughts from herself.
These days flew by in agony, Diana should not approach the window anymore, since it aroused so many emotions and painful reflections in her, but she could no longer imagine life without a window to the world.
She was expecting Alexander. Today he was supposed to return from a business trip, but was delayed. It seemed to her that she heard his voice behind the locked door, but he was in no hurry to go to her…
In the usual silence, she heard, painfully familiar, the turn of the key in the keyhole. She quickly moved away from the window and obediently sat down on the bed. Alexander entered.
Diana looked up at him. How she missed him! She hadn’t seen him for so long! She needed her Master, needed his attention, regular punishment, for cleansing from sinful thoughts.
“Hello, baby. I missed you.” The man whispered.
Alexander sat down on the edge of the bed closer to the girl, ran his hand through her hair and, bringing his face closer, inhaled the smell of her hair.
“I have only a day and I will have to leave again.” The man said quietly.
“For a long time, Master?” The girl was noticeably sad and looked down at the floor.
“I don’t know, maybe a week, maybe a month. Things to do at work. This time, I will have to spend a lot more time on the trip.”
“And what about me?” She turned to Alexander, and they were face to face.
“And again you will stay here.” The man’s hand stroked her cheek. “There I will not have time for you, so you will have to wait for me here.”
“But… I… but what…” Diana could not speak out, she was very offended that the Master was leaving her here, and she would be without his attention for an unknown amount of time. What if he finds someone else there? He can then turn his back on her or, even worse, give her back, as he once threatened. Diana did not want to return there, and she would not have been accepted back. She is no longer a virgin.
Having seen the sunlight, she did not want to go underground again. She felt good here too! She passionately loved her master, although she hated him, at times, for excessive cruelty and indifference.
“I said no!” The man growled. “You will stay here and humbly wait for me! What is not clear?”
“I understood everything, Master, I will wait for you here, in this room.” Diana pulled her head into her shoulders and seemed to have shrunk in size from the man’s anger.
“Good girl.” Alexander smiled and stroked Diana on the head. “Now, I have to go. See you soon!”
“How? So fast? Does the gentleman want to play with me before the trip?” The girl looked alarmed.
“Not today, baby, I’m in a hurry.” The man kissed Diana on the lips and got out of bed, turning around the door, Alexander said: “wait for me, I will miss you.”
“Master, I will wait for you!” Whispered the girl and tears poured down her cheeks.From NôvelDrama.Org.
Alexander disappeared behind the door and the key turned again in the lock. That damned sound of the door being locked, how she hated it!
“He even didn’t want to enjoy my body, despite the fact that we hadn’t seen each other for so long… Maybe he was already tired of me? Maybe he already found someone better than me?” This thoughts tormented her and haunted her.
He left. Leaving her alone with her thoughts and experiences locked in this room, now, for a very long time. The girl sat on the bed and cried bitterly. She was so upset about Alexander’s new business trip that she did not notice how a new servant entered the room.
“Girl, why are you crying?”
“The owner left and left me here.” Said Diana through her tears.
“Stupid, that’s nothing to cry about, your master will return, he often goes on business trips. This is his job, can you imagine how much he needs to work to support this whole house and children?” The woman smiled. “Here, eat, and stop roaring. With tears you only make yourself worse!”
Diana raised her tear-stained face to the servant. But she’s right. Diana could not change anything, she had neither influence, nor the right to speak, she could only do one thing – obey the orders of the Master. Otherwise, she was nothing. Just an interesting and trouble-free toy. Tears instantly stopped flowing from her eyes, she wiped her face and went to the table.