Unspoken Pleasure

It was Wednesday morning. I awoke feeling wonderful after yesterdays marathon sex session with my lover, Scottie. Ginny had already left for school and I was sitting alone at the kitchen table sipping my coffee when I heard the door open. I smiled wondering what Ginny had forgotten for school this morning as she rushed out the door. I turned and saw John standing there.

I stood up and said, "John what are you doing here?" He started to say, "Andrea, we need to talk."

I cut him off and smirked, "John what exactly do you want to talk about? Our daughter? She understands. Our home? No. Certainly not our sham of a marriage." Before I could continue he interrupted me, "After all these years how did you find out?"

I looked at him quizzically and said, "Find out about what?"

His demeanor once again quickly changed from conciliatory to offensive. He said, "Fine Andrea! I'll confess to what you already know. I'm sorry that I haven't been faithful to our marriage. I didn't mean for it to happen but it just did." I sat down, stunned at his lack of compassion, not believing what I had just heard. How could I've been so blind to his selfish whims all these years that it never once crossed my mind that the reason he was never home was because he was having a fucking affair.

Pissed off at myself I stood and glared at him. I yelled, "You fucking asshole. Here I was beating myself up because I felt bad asking you to leave not knowing where you would end up when in reality you already had a bed to go to. You bastard! Guess what? I never thought that you were having an affair. I never knew until you just fucking told me! I always thought you loved me and we had just grown apart. In reality we didn't grow apart you just left our marriage without telling me. You are such an asshole John. How could you fuck me over like this. To think of all the years of loneliness I put up with because I loved you. I'm such a fucking idiot!"

He replied, "Andrea I'm sorry. It just happened. I was traveling a lot and felt alone.." I snapped and cut him off. "Stop with the condescending bullshit John. I was the one has been alone. I'm the one who waited for you each and every time you went out of town hoping that when you returned you would hug me, kiss me and tell me you missed me. What a fucking joke! Who is the fucking bitch? Do I know her?"

"Andrea, it's one of my customers. You don't know her. She's out on the west coast."

Getting angrier I screamed, "One of your customers? How long has it been going on? How long? Tell me goddam it!"

He ashamedly answered, "I can't remember exactly. I think about ten years."

I cried out, "Ten years John? You've been fucking your customer for ten years no strings attached? Must be nice! I guess we know she is nothing but a fucking whore. I can't believe this. It's almost comical. I was the one beating myself up while you were with your whore girlfriend getting your rocks off. Obviously you know our marriage is over. I'll get an attorney and have him contact you. Now once and for all get out of here and leave me alone. You are such an asshole."

I sat back down and started to cry. Then I heard the asshole say, " Andrea there is no need to get an attorney. You will get the house, the country club equity membership and half of our remaining assets."

I looked at him and said, "John that's the least I'm going to get! I'll let my attorney figure that out."

He replied, "Fine have him contact me and I'll put him in touch with our attorney." I thought did he just say "our attorney" hmmm. How long has this been in the works. I heard the asshole continue, "I'll be moving to the West coast until I get settled down. I'll text Ginny my address so that we can stay in touch. I hope you won't paint me in such a way that she won't want to see me."

God he pisses me off. I glared at him and spewed, "You really are a horrible human being. You abused me emotionally for ten years. You fucked me up and now you think that I'm going to let you fuck up your only child? I'm not like you John. I care about Ginny and know it's important for her to survive this as best as possible. Rest easy asshole I will never let Ginny know what a prick you were to me. Nope all she will ever hear from me is that we grew apart. Now get the fuck out of here!novelbin

He left me alone to cry my sorrows away. How fucking typical of the bastard.

The day dragged on forever. I was feeling so upset that I ended up just laying in bed trying to read a book but with so many emotions and thoughts running through my mind it was a lost cause.

Wednesday evening rolled around with no change in attitude. To say I was literally hit on the head with a 2x 4 is an understatement. What am I going to do? Damn I had such an intense desire to be with Scottie that it was overwhelming any rational thought I had, which at this point was none. I got up and walked over to Ginny's room. I popped my head through the door to say goodnight, "Hi kiddo. I'm going to bed. I'll see you tomorrow morning. I love you."

Ginny looked at me from her bed and said, "I love you too mom. Are you doing okay? You know with the you and dad thing?"

"Honey I'm fine. Don't worry about me. I really feel good about this. I know he's your dad but we really had grown apart a long time ago. I'm excited to move on with my life."

"Oh mom that's great. Um I er I.." I stopped her and said, "Ginny spit it out. It's okay." She looked at me and smiled, "Mom would you be okay if I stayed over at Becky's house Friday night? She is having some of the girls overnight and then we are going to go to the lake first thing in the morning Saturday. I don't want to leave you alone if you need me."

Bless my heart. I smiled and said, "Ginny, I'll be fine. Enjoy Friday night at Becky's. When will you be home Saturday?" "Yes, Saturday. I'll be home by dinnertime. Is that okay?"

I nodded my head yes as she jumped out of bed to give me a big hug, "Thanks Mom. You're the best. I love you."

I left and went to my room thinking should I text Scottie? I eventually said yes to my hesitancy and texted him, "What are you doing Friday night?"

My phone immediately pinged, "Going to dinner with a sexy beautiful lady."

He better be talking about me I thought as I texted, "I'm not sure we can be seen together in public."

Immediately he replied, "Relax gorgeous. I'm taking you to a very private club that I guarantee you won't know anyone. Make sure to dress really sexy for me. I'll pick you up at 6:00. Can't wait!"

My heart raced as I replied, "I can't wait! I miss you."

He said wear something sexy! I don't have anything sexy other than the dress I wore last Friday, which he has already seen me in. Damn!

As I got ready for bed I thought to myself that I really needed to update my wardrobe. I grimaced knowing what a pain that was going to be! I'll just have to go about it slowly and not make too drastic a change so as to call out unnecessary inquiries as to "why the change in look".

As I got into bed it suddenly struck me that I needed to get Emma to help me. Even though it was already late for me, I called her knowing that she would still be up. She answered, "Hey Andrea. What are you doing up so late?" "Haha Emma you are so funny! Listen I could really use your help. Care to meet me for lunch and a little shopping afterwards tomorrow? My treat!"

Emma being the dear friend said, "Sure honey. Everything okay?"