Uncontrollable Tempration

“I know. Its too late. I can see that you already like him and he likes you too. I don’t want you to end it with him, I just thought you should know.”

“Thank you so much for telling me.”

She smiled and we hugged.

———

Adam Wilson

I threw the cup on the wall and it shattered into pieces. This was probably the third thing I’ve smashed this afternoon…

Still in the aftermath of yesterday’s unpleasant situation, I haven’t even blinked an eye to sleep. All night I tossed and turned up until dawn. I’ve spent my whole day drinking, but I’m not drunk.

I have work to do but I postponed everything because I wasn’t in the right state of mind. Today my main focus was not on business although it was very related to it, it was on something much more personal. A slight clash between the two.

My mind was dwelling on something so exquisitely feminine and alluring that I don’t know how I had managed to control myself last night and not go to that little apartment in Murray Hill, knock down the door and take Sophia hard and fast!

I can still remember how she looked last night seeing her for the first time in a long time. She was better than any fantasy I’ve ever had.

I frowned at the unwelcoming surge of desire that ran through me. Since last night, she has been causing me frustration of the most strategic kind.

I am so angry at myself for letting all this happen. Everything is my fault! I’ve never screwed up so stupidly like this before.

What in the world was I thinking?! Staying away from her was obviously going to hurt her feelings!

Ugh! I remember how crazy I went when she left to Virginia, I had to chase her down. She probably felt the same way during my absence, even worse because she didn’t know where I was and when I was coming back.

At least she went away because her father was ill. Mine was just for stupid, selfish reasons! I took a break from her because I was fucked up emotionally and I needed some time to rediscover myself. Apparently I didn’t know love was not a thing you could ‘take a break from’.

All I did was waste my time and fuck shit up some more! When Sophia kissed me, I shouldn’t have pushed her away. That was so idiotic of me. I was just trying to prove a point and it didn’t work because if it did, I wouldn’t be so hung up on her right now!

“Adam you fool.” I chastised myself.

Maybe I should call her…

I picked up my phone and dialled her number but before it rung, I ended it because I hadn’t thought of what I as going to say yet.

“What the fuck am I going to say to her??” I groaned.

When has talking to a woman made me so uneasy??? I felt like a nervous wreck!

I can’t help myself sometimes, I even do stupid things a lot when it comes to Sophia.

I went to my bar and got out a new glass. I poured myself some more brandy, what I’ve been drinking all day.

As I took a sip I recalled the time I spent in Maui trying to get over her, Clearly that didn’t pay off, I only went there to torture myself. I couldn’t even look at any other woman without comparing them to Sophia, and not even one could size up to her. I turned down all the women down and went to bed alone every night. It was impossible for me to be with another woman after Sophia. No matter how hard I had tried to deny it, she was the only object of my affection. I thought about her every single day and night, wondering what it would’ve been like if she was there with me. Maui was such a beautiful place and I would have loved to experience it with her. I could just imagine how happy she would have been, playing around in the exotic beach right in front of the hotel, smiling at the radiant scene…

My phone buzzed and I picked up the call abruptly, snapping out of my daydream.

“Hello Mr Wilson, this is David from the security department, we have some footage that we think you would be interested in.”

“What is it Dave?”

“Remember how you instructed us to keep an eye on Miss Parker and alert you the moment we find anything unusual? I think we’ve found something.”

Ah yes! I remember telling my boys to stalk her a bit, but that was months ago when she tried to get involved romantically with my accountant, Sean Edmund. I instructed them to stalk him too, although he was a good friend and I’m sure he understood that I had taken interest in Sophia. I assumed his appetite for her had suppressed but then I found them having dinner at Nerai the other day, I instructed my boys to resume the duty. What could Dave have found?

“Send it to my email. Now.”

“Ok sir.”

I went over to my study and turned on my desktop. I couldn’t wait to see what Dave found. A little bird told me that Sean and Sophia had been hanging out a lot but when I confronted him that night they had dinner together, he assured me that everything was strictly professional and she was only assisting him because she had no other work to do.

I opened up my email and checked for new messages. There it was, one from Dave.

I downloaded and opened it.

It was a security camera footage, the one in Sean’s office.

He was with Sophia and they were talking… no wait! Hugging!

What is this?

Soon they were kissing!

Anger and jealousy with a mix of possessiveness vibrated through me as I watched the video. They were practically doing ‘IT’ on his desk!NôvelDrama.Org exclusive content.

He lied to me! He told me there was nothing going on!

I checked the date of the footage only to find out that this happened just yesterday! Rage fumed through my body. I felt like a provoked wild animal, I was ready to kill anything in my way right now. I was angry at Sophia for kissing another man, but mostly Sean for kissing MY girl!

I went to my closet to grab my shoes and coat.

Sean is a dead man. I thought as I wore my clothes.

I grabbed my keys and stormed off.

***

It only took me a few minutes before I arrived at my destination, Sean’s condo. I knocked rapidly on the front door. Moments later, the door swung open, revealing a confused looking Sean.

I wanted to murder him immediately but I took deep breaths, trying to calm myself.

“Adam, what are you-”

“You bastard!” I shoved him backwards, unable to control my anger. I invited myself into his house.

“Whoa, what’s going on?” He held his hands up in the air.

“You told me there’s nothing going on between you and her!” I spat.

“There isn’t.” He stated matter-of-factly.

That made my blood boil. The fact that he was able to lie conveniently to my face. Sean was one of my trusted people, we’ve been friends since college and I never expected him to double-cross me like this.

“Don’t lie to me Sean.” I tried to reason with him.

“It seems like you want me to, I’ve already told you the truth-” Lies!

My fist connected with his face.

The punch set him backwards knocking down a flower vase in the process. The vase shattered into huge pieces.

“Ugh! What the hell?!” He groaned.

“Stay away from her! She’s mine!” I barked. Sean recovered and stood up.

“No she’s not!”

“I’m going to kill you.’ I grabbed him by the shirt.

I attacked with a big right overhand punch. He stepped out of range, but before he could bring his hands up to defend, I drove my shoulder into his chest, slamming him into the wall, where I started landing solid punches into his gut.

He threw a block with his left hand and hooked his left leg with my own, trying to throw me to the ground. I could tell he didn’t want to fight but I was hurting him. He turned forward throwing us both on the ground. The impact caught me between his shoulder blades and the glass centre table broke into two.

We traded blows until we were both bruised and battered equally. We made a mess around the house and everywhere was now in shambles.

“You moron! You’ve destroyed my house!” Sean winced in pain as we both lay on the floor breathing heavily. His nose was bleeding and he had a burst lip. I had a cut right above my eye that was gushing out blood.

“I’m sorry.” I said.

“Now that you’ve gotten a pointless fight out of me, would you like to talk like a rational human being would have done first?”

He stood up and held his hand out to me. I took it and he helped me up as well. Pain shot throughout my body.

“You know that I’m crazy about her.” I said calmly for the first time.

“I do.” He affirmed walking towards his bar and getting a drink.

“Then why did you kiss her?”

He looked at me shockingly like he didn’t expect me to know about it.

“What are you talking about?”

“Yesterday.”

“She kissed me first Adam. And I tried to but I couldn’t resist it.” He didn’t even try to deny it. He poured two glasses for us both. I’m guessing it was whiskey.

“What? Is she into you or something?” I asked jealously. I took my glass and downed the contents.

“I don’t know Adam. You left her, I was there for her. What do you expect? Although I don’t trust her judgement.” He drank from his cup.