Chpater 33
I was in bed ugly crying watching greys anatomy. I had a bag of sweets and a big bag of chips. My laptop was open and my phone was near by. My gran had messaged saying she wouldn't be late and that she was bringing home a Chinese.
I had my Facebook open looking back at old pictures. That didn't help with the mood I was it. Just made me cry even more.
I didn't know I would miss my old life as much as I did. My phone pinged but I chose to ignore it. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.
Could be my gran though. Picking up my phone I saw Alanna's name.
'Are you okay? Ax'
'I'm fine :)'
I sent the smiling face hoping she would believe me. I wasn't in the mood to talk about my feelings. I was okay I was just sad and being sad was okay. 'Want to come over? Ax'
"Can't studying. I'll see you tomorrow if you're in. Night x'
It wasn't a lie. I couldn't write my personal statement but I could type it with one hand. It may take me forever but I had to at least show I was doing some work.
My phoned pinged again. This girl didn't give up.
'I'm sorry you're having a rough time just now. I'll keep my distance until I need too. Won't be forever princess'
My mouth became dry.
He was finally listening to me.
'Thank you x'
I deleted his number after that.
I could hear the music, I could hear the laughter. He was having a party of some sort and I could no longer concentrate.
My front door slammed shut.
"Leah come down I've got dinner". My gran yelled.
Great I was starving and for once she wasn't home too late.
"Wow they've done a great job Leah. Isn't it beautiful?". She gushed. It was always nice to see my gran smile. "Said they would be done by Thursday. Grab some paper plates honey".
I stood with my arms crossed leaning against the bunker. I just wasn't fitting in here at all. I know it had only been two days but it didn't seem to be getting any better.
I burst out crying.
"Oh Leah, sweetheart what's wrong". I was pulled into my grans arms as she held me tight. "Who's hurt you? What's happened?".
"I'm just sad". I cried. "None of the girls at school like me, none of them want to get to know me. So much for making new friends".
"Oh honey". She whispered. "I'm so sorry I moved us away. I uprooted your life and expected you to be okay with it. We shouldn't have moved".
"I'm just not fitting in". I sobbed wiping at my eyes.
"What about Alanna? Is she not your friend?".
"Yes. It's okay I'm okay". As I started to plate my dinner my gran placed her hand on my arm. "It's hard sweetheart but you'll get there, we'll get there together".
"I know. I'm going to eat mine upstairs and then go to bed. I'm not feeling good and my hands sore". I was laying the ground work so I could take a sick day tomorrow. "That's okay sweetheart. Go eat your dinner and get some rest".
I headed back to my room and continued to watch greys. I don't know where the tears had come from. I was always the strong independent girl but recently I felt like a broken one. Why didn't I have someone to fix my crown?
Checking my phone I noticed I had a message from Ryan. He seemed to be my only real friend at the moment. 'You alright shorty?'This is property © of NôvelDrama.Org.
'I'm okay! Thanks for checking in. I won't be in school tomorrow. I'm not feeling great but I'll see you Thursday'