An Italian’s Escort Lover

Flashback Continues…

Phoebe Point of View

It’s such a bright atmosphere with people chatting, dancing, drinking and laughing freely. Many influential people we could only see in news with their brooding expressions are now completely transformed into smiling gentlemen.

Everyone are happy, at least they are skillful enough to look happy. Nobody showed on their faces, what problems they were going through. The tensions, the pressure, everything was completely and very expertly hidden behind their delightful smiles.

My mind went to the time when I first saw my Nicco in the auction more than a decade ago. When I remember that moment I couldn’t help myself from smiling. My first impression on him was, though he was very handsome I thought he would be wild and uncaring.

To my utter shock and relief, he turned out completely opposite.

All these years with him, I had gone through many transformations of life with him. He was always there for me in good and bad.

He was like a brother when he scolded me for doing something wrong.

Like a father, he always guided me through thick and thin.

Like a lover he made me a woman.

He was my friend when he made me laugh.

And a rival to push me forward, beyond my limits.

It would be a girl’s good fortune to have a person like Nicco in her life. I was that person, but not anymore.

I noticed him laughing with his friends and colleagues while having a drink. Laura was there too having fun with the group.

“Are you not going to tell him yet?” I heard a familiar voice. I shook my head without turning my head.

“No. Not now. Anyway, what was all that about?” I asked back to which she responded with a scowl and a terrified look. “You didn’t know about his plans to get engaged with you tonight, do you?”

Sienna nodded her head slowly biting her lip nervously. “I don’t. I don’t know why he made such a mess of a situation, Phoebe. Till an hour ago he was after me insulting and overloading me with work load and now suddenly he proposed a relationship with me without even consulting with me. Argh, what do we do with these men, Phoebe. Why is it so tough for us to be happy and accept normal things in life?”

I gave her a sad smile and handed her a glass of fruit punch, gulping one myself. Sienna looked like she lost a lot of weight in just few hours from when I saw her this morning. She is nervous, worried and angry. I can see that.

Why would Leonardo Bianchi do that to her?

He is known to have a status stricken mindset then why would he go and publicly announce his engagement with a poor secretary of his?

“I think he likes you but doesn’t know how to express it. But then again, relationship with him is not good for you if you ask me.” I answered truthfully even though I sounded rude. I don’t want another girl grieving for lost love.

Sienna nodded her head understanding my point, “Nicco was a very supportive man and lovely human being, still look where I am. I am suffering from the separation. Leonardo is not a very supportive person according to me. He has very low opinion on women in general and women like us are lesser than dirt to him. It would be wonderful if you could be the reason for changing his opinion but Sienna dear, a tread in a candle has to burn itself to give light. I do not want you to be the thread to burn yourself for someone else’s enlightenment.”

Sienna is a very special person me; a sister, a friend and a great companion to me. If I could do anything for her then I would want to warn her about the future consequences of falling for a person, especially falling for a person like Leonardo. It’s not like I do not like him; I just don’t want my sister to have a hard life than what she is going through right now.

“Our lives are messed up, Phoebe. What are we going to do to ourselves?” Sienna whined and leaned her head on my shoulder.

Indeed, our lives are messed up dear and it would get messier in coming days.

“Your Nicco is coming this way, I will leave now.” Sienna said in a hurry when she pointed the arriving Nicco. Once she slipped back into the crowd, Nicco sat in the chair beside me.

“I thought Vald forced Laura into handcuffs and brought her here but you know what?” He laughed out holding my hand in his. “Apparantly, Laura and Vald had some bet and Vald won. And according to the bet rules, Vald earned an opportunity to control Laura for a whole day and that idiot chose to handcuff her the whole day.”

It was beautiful. Nicco’s laughter was so beautiful and tranquilizing that I’m going to miss after tonight. Should I record his laugh in my phone?

“I love you.” I said out of nowhere. His laughter seized immediately and his eyes locked mine in an intense cage. He looked as if he is trying to figure me out or figure out what is going on with me.

I know he has his doubts about my changed behavior. He’s not stupid, he knew something is wrong with me but this is not the right time to tell him anything. I had him for thirteen long years, I held him back from many things. Now I don’t him to get stuck with me.

I want him happy, so happy that he forgets about me. I wish all my happiness go to him and bless him with a great life.

“I – come on, let’s have a dance.” I pulled me to the dance floor and swayed with me cozily. “I will not ask you what it that is giving you a hard time is. I know you wouldn’t tell me. But remember one thing, Bella, if one day I find you hurt then I would not spare the person who gave you such pain nor would I spare you for hiding it from me.”

“If you are hurt, it pains me. If you are happy then I smile. Heck, without you I will go crazy, Bella.” He rasped out in a curt voice filled with emotions.

Why do you say such things Nicco? How can I leave if you say such things?

After three dances with Nicco, I was forced to dance with Leonardo when Nicco had to go to washroom. Leonardo looked at me like I disgusted him and warned me to go away from his friend’s life for good. I agreed to him and told him I would be out of Nicco’s life soon.

I understand, I understand his care and concern for his friend but I still cannot wipe out the hurt he always gives by saying I disgust him.

That moment, I wanted to cry so much but seems like I had finally got use to insults that it is not giving me tears anymore.

Soon after Nicco returned, we left the party after having light dinner and proceeded to Nicco’s penthouse to have last love making of my life. I cannot have him anymore, after tonight I cannot see him, I cannot touch him, I cannot hug him, I can hear his laugh, I cannot feel his love.

I cannot have him!

It was one of the best nights of my life. Last night to have him close to me, in my arms happily. Tomorrow will bring a new morning in my life but a morning where things get tough for me.

Tomorrow will open a new gate of Hell for me. A new life without love or a man I love.

“I love you, Nicco.” I wished again and hugged him tightly placing kisses on his chest. I had never thought that words like ‘I love you’ can give be such ache. “I love you so much. I always prayed to God to have you completely even if it is not possible. How can I live without you my Nicco? I just love you so much.” I whispered when he is in sleep. I brushed his soft hair away from his forehead and kissed it for good ten minutes and looked at him from head to toe, saving everything in my head.

Your memories and your wellbeing will be my lifeline from this moment Nicco. I may not have you but I will try to live my life with your memories. You are not just a part of my life; you are that part of my life which is the only reason for my existence.

I love you, Nicco. I still feel like I haven’t said those words to my heart content.

I wish you a great life, My Niccolo. I wish best for you and pray you always get what you want. I will always watch you from afar and will try to be satisfied with that.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

I’m sorry I am going away without giving you a proper farewell but this is necessary, Nicco.

Goodbye to my love…

Goodbye to my life…

Goodbye to my happiness…

Goodbye Nicco…

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