Alpha Of Darkness And The Half-Breed Healer

GAEL’S POV

My eyes lingered on the words of the paper. I glanced up at Gemma, whose face looked a bit different. I noticed the pace at which she breathed and the odd scent her wolf emitted. I know I should be excited, considering this is the news that the entire pack has been waiting for. I can’t seem to feel it. Nothing feels appealing to me lately. I want to bury my head in the sand and not come out again.

“This is nice. I will inform the council about it, and we will proceed with the wedding.” I said with low enthusiasm.

Gemma’s face fell. “but you don’t look too happy.”

Her words seem to irritate me all of a sudden.

“How else am I supposed to act? Jump around and howl because you are pregnant? It isn’t my first, you know.”

“What do you mean by that? It’s not your first, but it’s mine. Shouldn’t you at least show great concern?” She retorted.

I gripped the bed sheets tightly. “One more disrespectful word from you, and you will be sleeping in the cell with that thing inside of you. Do you think I can’t make more if I choose?”

“Why are you being rude to me, Gael? What did I do wrong?”

I kissed my teeth in disgust. “Your presence in my life is what you did wrong.”

“But you asked me to come back.”

“Technically, I didn’t. And I don’t want to have this conversation. If you have nothing else to say, get dressed and leave. The maids will take care of you and respond to your needs. Don’t show me your face until I ask you to.” I ordered, yanking off the duvet from my body. I made my way to the bathroom.

Staring at myself in the mirror feels very strange. It’s almost like I am not the one. My beard has overgrown, and my hair covered half of my face. I have been living like a pure loser for weeks. Nothing interests me, and I am more like a walking dead. And I wouldn’t say I like every bit of it. Immersing myself in work isn’t even that easy. I have to keep struggling to focus. It’s driving me up the wall.

Moving stealthily, I stepped out of the bathroom with a determined mind. I feel heavy because it has been a while since I ran in the woods. Shifting into my wolf, I ran just halfway and stopped when I reached the spot where I had seen Nia naked for the first time. I can’t remember if I told her about it. I have been meaning to let go of the memory. But like a plague, it sticks with me. She is such a sponge. Her absence is just the same as her presence.

Giving up on the run in frustration, I returned to the room, entered the bathroom again, and stared at myself. I know it is unhealthy for me to keep doing stupid things repeatedly. It isn’t me. There is no way I would have fallen so deep for Nia and could not control my emotions. Every passing day feels like my soul is fading away. Anger clawed at me suddenly, causing me to his spitefully.

Turning away from the mirror, I washed up and headed for the study. To my surprise, Ezra seemed to have been waiting for me. I felt happy just seeing him, but I remembered our differences and shut my excitement down.

“What are you doing here?” I questioned.

He closed the book in his hand and tilted his head. “We have a problem.”

“As long as it has nothing to do with finding a healer. We have nothing to worry about then.”

“It is indeed something to worry about. Rumors are flying around the pack, and we must make it die. I have called the media management team. But we need you to chip in your thoughts before going ahead.”

“If you have already made the decision. Why come to me again?”Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

“It would be wrong not to carry you along. Everyone is accusing you of negligence. The children of the elders you locked unjustly have voiced their displeasure on how cruel you are. You are being mocked and said to have lost your power. You know how those these things work. Someone must have started it to cause mischief.”

I scoffed in irritation. “how am I so sure you didn’t do that?”

Ezra bit down on his lips and held my gaze. “Do I look like a petty person to you? Probably you wouldn’t mind doing that. But I can assure you it is not my way of doing things. So be rest assured that I know nothing about it.”

Gritting my teeth, I stayed quiet, toying with the pen on the table. “do you think making Gemma Luna is a bad idea?” I asked, letting loose of my ego. “I don’t care about whatever anyone says. But she is carrying my child now. It will be wrong not to make it official before she puts to bed.”

The silence was deafening, and for a moment, I thought Ezra had stepped out without me knowing. I glanced up, our eyes met, and he had a twinkle in his; aside from that, I couldn’t read any emotion on his face.

“Why did you take Gemma back in the first place?” He asked.

I shrugged, “is there supposed to be a reason?”

“Well, to my understanding, you needed a replacement so bad, and you must have missed how recklessly you both play around. A part of you was very conscious of what you were doing. So, it will be up to you to decide what is best for you.”

“I always knew seeking love in relationships was a total waste of time. I don’t know why I got carried away. There is no other way to it as it stands. I will get married to Gemma whether the council agrees to it or not. I feel she will be more reasonable when she has a child to look after. Many women become thoughtful after their first child. You can leave now.” I said.

He didn’t even hesitate for a second. “Yes, Alpha.”

Even though he said nothing wrong, I am still pissed. How hard is it for him to sympathize with me? I am not a fan of a pity party, but he is the closest person to me. That’s the least I should expect from him. Leaning into the chair, I shut my eyes, feeling tired, zoning out the draining thoughts.  I should get some sleep instead. That would make me feel much better.